anyway here are some pictures I took of downtown yesterday
btw right now I'm listening to Tb70 by Kilo Kish, she's hot shit
on a complete other note it took me literally 10 minutes to get those pictures up which made the song change as well as my train of thought. I was thinking about "things you wish you would have said". I wish I had followers on this blog so you could tell me what you wish you would have said. Anything to anyone about anything.
I wish I had the balls to tell my former best friend I miss her and idk what happened between us.
I wish I could tell this really cool azn kid I used to be friends with that I always thought he was really cool and I know he's going places and I wish we were still friends.
I would tell the boy I think I love that I wish he would grow up and give me my heart/mind back. I think about him all the time and I hate the way he makes me feel without even trying. I hate the power he has over me, and he could care-a-less that he has it. I'd also tell him that I envy 100% anyone that has that power over him because I want it.
I would tell the guy I think I like, that I like him to much as a person to complicate our relationship with feelings. Because he's the kind of person you keep as a friend forever, and the last thing I want is to ruin that because I like him.
but I can't do it because I'm torn between thinking that things are meant to be this way (but I'm actually just using that as an excuse to not do all this), and that I could dig myself into a deeper hole by actually speaking out. My snapple cap has great advice that I'm not ready to take. But I suppose I'll figure it all out one day.
But until then I am forever perplexed and burdened with these thoughts and feelings. Don't make my mistake, please be better.
xx -Tristen.
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